[the silence at first is almost paralyzing, and when leon finally breaks it... stahn isn't sure what kind of response he's going to get.
there's a certainty in leon's eyes that's present now, but that can be associated with just about anything when it comes to leon. it could be a request for space, or a refusal. it could be leon trying to shove everything back under the rug and calling him ridiculous once again. there's a lot of things it could be, and he's ready to brace himself for the worst... because he knows leon is capable of it.
but those words never come. no, the words he gets from leon that are accompanied by that determined expression are nothing of the sort. "i understand," "i'll accept the consequences of my actions." most people may need a leon-to-english dictionary, but stahn knows better. stahn knows... this isn't just any sort of acceptance. he's accepting the situation now, as they are. he's accepting stahn's belief in him. he's accepting stahn, despite how much he would say that he hated people like that. but he's accepting it.]
Leon... [he says it with a mixture of surprise and warmth; maybe he should have expected more of leon when the sentiments had already been acknowledged. but he couldn't help it when knowing how prone leon could be to pushing him away.
but he isn't, so as the shock fades, his expression is replaced with a wide, elated grin.
he happy. he's happy because leon isn't pushing him away. he's accepting all of this in earnest. for stahn, it means he'll work twice as hard to ensure that he doesn't let leon down, or make him regret that choice.]
I'll make sure you don't regret it. [he knows he can't say much else; he knows it'll embarrass leon to be too forward at a time like this. but it's okay, because he can grip leon's hands tightly, and he can close the gap to their foreheads are touching completely. he can smile and grin and convey his relief this way.
after all that's happened in this last while, he's shifted. stahn is shining brightly and happily like the sun. he doesn't know what will happen in the future, and he knows there's still so much to worry about. but he feels an overwhelming joy in his chest right now anyway, and he wants to share all of the warmth it provides with leon.
stahn won't leave him.
stahn won't give up on him.
and wordlessly, he does his best to express this with these small gestures; things he wouldn't have imagined doing even two hours ago are now his top priority for the moment. he's let leon make this choice, and now there's very little holding back.
"i like you, leon," remain the unspoken words here, but... he doesn't have to say it right now. will he? yes, but not in this moment, not when they're still trying to make sense of these new things. for now, his own response is probably enough to get the point across.]
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there's a certainty in leon's eyes that's present now, but that can be associated with just about anything when it comes to leon. it could be a request for space, or a refusal. it could be leon trying to shove everything back under the rug and calling him ridiculous once again. there's a lot of things it could be, and he's ready to brace himself for the worst... because he knows leon is capable of it.
but those words never come. no, the words he gets from leon that are accompanied by that determined expression are nothing of the sort. "i understand," "i'll accept the consequences of my actions." most people may need a leon-to-english dictionary, but stahn knows better. stahn knows... this isn't just any sort of acceptance. he's accepting the situation now, as they are. he's accepting stahn's belief in him. he's accepting stahn, despite how much he would say that he hated people like that. but he's accepting it.]
Leon... [he says it with a mixture of surprise and warmth; maybe he should have expected more of leon when the sentiments had already been acknowledged. but he couldn't help it when knowing how prone leon could be to pushing him away.
but he isn't, so as the shock fades, his expression is replaced with a wide, elated grin.
he happy. he's happy because leon isn't pushing him away. he's accepting all of this in earnest. for stahn, it means he'll work twice as hard to ensure that he doesn't let leon down, or make him regret that choice.]
I'll make sure you don't regret it. [he knows he can't say much else; he knows it'll embarrass leon to be too forward at a time like this. but it's okay, because he can grip leon's hands tightly, and he can close the gap to their foreheads are touching completely. he can smile and grin and convey his relief this way.
after all that's happened in this last while, he's shifted. stahn is shining brightly and happily like the sun. he doesn't know what will happen in the future, and he knows there's still so much to worry about. but he feels an overwhelming joy in his chest right now anyway, and he wants to share all of the warmth it provides with leon.
stahn won't leave him.
stahn won't give up on him.
and wordlessly, he does his best to express this with these small gestures; things he wouldn't have imagined doing even two hours ago are now his top priority for the moment. he's let leon make this choice, and now there's very little holding back.
"i like you, leon," remain the unspoken words here, but... he doesn't have to say it right now. will he? yes, but not in this moment, not when they're still trying to make sense of these new things. for now, his own response is probably enough to get the point across.]