[it's absolutely enough. really, it's all stahn needs at all.
his elation is almost euphoric; there's something about leon accepting his affections for what they that almost seems to feed that energy directly to him. there's such a knowing that comes along with this—leon is acting according to his own wants right now. and to stahn? that's incredibly important.
he's always seen leon as strong. he's an amazing swordsman with a lot of talent, and he has a commanding enough nature to him that a good leader in battle needs. from the first time they crossed swords, stahn has always admired his talents. he's pushed to be friendly with leon ever since then because he knew there was probably a lot more to it than that, too. it turned out he was never wrong, either. even though leon is nothing short of harsh, there's always been more. vulnerabilities kept locked away, loneliness that was masked by adamance that he didn't want friends, a complete inability to admit positive feelings towards things he likes. stahn's seen all of that too, and he's been so determined to try and break past that—now that he has, how can he be anything but happy about it.
he's tried so hard in his persistence to never give up on leon, but all while still trying to respect his boundaries. he didn't push too far, he let leon win a lot of arguments just for the satisfaction, or not to hurt his pride. he never let up being himself in all his bright and sunny ways—a natural thing for stahn, but it did unintentionally serve as a way to prove his sincerity.
and now they're here like this.
now they're here, and stahn just wants to bottle the moment. he can feel warmth coming from leon too. that warmth shows itself in different ways, but he knows it's there, and he knows there's a level of sincerity to it that couldn't easily be matched. he knows, leon isn't pulling away. he knows from the soft breaths and the lack of a stern gaze from his eyes. he knows because his body is relaxed, because someone like leon, who doesn't ever welcome physical contact, isn't pushing him away. stahn knows these things, and he embraces them.
there's no telling what the future will hold. stahn can't say what will happen once they take care of greybaum. he can't say what will happen when the mission is over. neither of them knows what promises can be kept and what can't. but stahn will always do his damnedest to maintain it. it's all he can really convey in this state. he wants that much. he wants a situation where leon can rely on him, he wants a situation where separation is out of necessity, not out of want. he wants leon to be able to lean on him when things are tough, instead of trying so hard to bear the weight of the world on his shoulders alone.
he shouldn't have to, and stahn doesn't want that.
and that's why even in this moment of elation, he never gives up. he doesn't push—he doesn't want to take this moment and ruin in by pushing leon into an uncomfortable situation. stahn is fine like this, with this small and subtle affection and the silent reassurance that he's always going to be himself... which of course means never giving up on leon.
if he can share that and warm leon up just a little bit... that's enough, isn't it? that's all he needs from this.]
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his elation is almost euphoric; there's something about leon accepting his affections for what they that almost seems to feed that energy directly to him. there's such a knowing that comes along with this—leon is acting according to his own wants right now. and to stahn? that's incredibly important.
he's always seen leon as strong. he's an amazing swordsman with a lot of talent, and he has a commanding enough nature to him that a good leader in battle needs. from the first time they crossed swords, stahn has always admired his talents. he's pushed to be friendly with leon ever since then because he knew there was probably a lot more to it than that, too. it turned out he was never wrong, either. even though leon is nothing short of harsh, there's always been more. vulnerabilities kept locked away, loneliness that was masked by adamance that he didn't want friends, a complete inability to admit positive feelings towards things he likes. stahn's seen all of that too, and he's been so determined to try and break past that—now that he has, how can he be anything but happy about it.
he's tried so hard in his persistence to never give up on leon, but all while still trying to respect his boundaries. he didn't push too far, he let leon win a lot of arguments just for the satisfaction, or not to hurt his pride. he never let up being himself in all his bright and sunny ways—a natural thing for stahn, but it did unintentionally serve as a way to prove his sincerity.
and now they're here like this.
now they're here, and stahn just wants to bottle the moment. he can feel warmth coming from leon too. that warmth shows itself in different ways, but he knows it's there, and he knows there's a level of sincerity to it that couldn't easily be matched. he knows, leon isn't pulling away. he knows from the soft breaths and the lack of a stern gaze from his eyes. he knows because his body is relaxed, because someone like leon, who doesn't ever welcome physical contact, isn't pushing him away. stahn knows these things, and he embraces them.
there's no telling what the future will hold. stahn can't say what will happen once they take care of greybaum. he can't say what will happen when the mission is over. neither of them knows what promises can be kept and what can't. but stahn will always do his damnedest to maintain it. it's all he can really convey in this state. he wants that much. he wants a situation where leon can rely on him, he wants a situation where separation is out of necessity, not out of want. he wants leon to be able to lean on him when things are tough, instead of trying so hard to bear the weight of the world on his shoulders alone.
he shouldn't have to, and stahn doesn't want that.
and that's why even in this moment of elation, he never gives up. he doesn't push—he doesn't want to take this moment and ruin in by pushing leon into an uncomfortable situation. stahn is fine like this, with this small and subtle affection and the silent reassurance that he's always going to be himself... which of course means never giving up on leon.
if he can share that and warm leon up just a little bit... that's enough, isn't it? that's all he needs from this.]