[there's nothing in this world—or maybe in any world that could have prepared stahn for all that's happening right now.
he's been the one guiding and make this push the whole while; that's just how he is. stahn isn't shy about his own feelings, after all. it may have taken him until now to realize the full extent of his feelings for leon, but now that he recognizes it, he can't shy away. it's been like this for a long time, hasn't it? from the moment he felt enamored by leon's strength, through dealing with his closed-off nature and just doing his best to be a friend to be relied on... leon has always been incredibly important to him. from the start, he's always considered leon a friend worth protecting and pursuing new avenues with.
but here and now, he's come to realize that things aren't so simple. his feelings are much more than that, because being around leon even at his grumpiest... stahn is happy to be there for it. and the feeling that's been rising in his chest from the moment their hands touched until now only further proves it—leon is someone completely irreplaceable to him.
and that's why he's been fine like this. there isn't much that stahn expects from this after all. with their hands gently locked together and faces close enough that he can feel leon's breath... that's enough. it's more than enough, because he knows this isn't easy for leon, and the last thing he's wanted to do this whole time is make him uncomfortable. this isn't about pushing boundaries, it's a simple acknowledgment of feelings and wanting to share them—but also letting leon decide for himself what he wants and what he feels. that's not something he can force, after all. it's not something he'd want to, either.
so when he sees the barest shift in leon's expression, he's not sure what will come next. he looks... determined. but he looks satisfied in that determination too, as if whatever conclusion he's come to is certainly the right one for him. stahn is prepared to accept that, whatever it may be.
or at least, he thinks he is.
but there's a look of slight befuddlement in his eyes as leon lifts their hands, and then... well, it happens so fast that he can hardly believe it. but there's a warm softness—the feeling of leon's lips pressing lightly against the skin of the back of his hand, and stahn can hardly contain himself. the feeling in his chest is explosive, he almost feels as if his heart could come right out of his chest from how hard it's pounding. it takes a lot to embarrass stahn, and yet... somehow, leon has managed. the feeling is overwhelming enough to cause stahn's cheeks to flush a bright shade of pink.
it's a good thing, of course. but stahn didn't expect leon's acknowledgement of feelings to be anything like this at all. for leon, who is so adamant about keeping to himself, and even more adamant about avoiding physical contact, he thought just holding hands would be more than what he'd accept. so for a move like this—something others would consider tame—to come from leon, he knows... he knows how seriously leon is considering his feelings. and that more so than the gesture itself speaks volumes and warms stahn's heart even more.]
Leon... [his tone is a mixture of surprise and just pure, warm affection. he's beyond happy, he's beyond even elated—he's not sure what to call it, or if there's even a word for it. but he knows now, he knows now so much that he wants to embrace leon's feelings.
soon. he's still so shocked by the move that he doesn't know how else to respond, and he also can't help but to remain cautious about not pushing his boundaries. this had to be hard enough for leon, so he can't take things too far.
but he's happy.
he's so, so happy for this, perhaps more so than he could have ever anticipated.]
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he's been the one guiding and make this push the whole while; that's just how he is. stahn isn't shy about his own feelings, after all. it may have taken him until now to realize the full extent of his feelings for leon, but now that he recognizes it, he can't shy away. it's been like this for a long time, hasn't it? from the moment he felt enamored by leon's strength, through dealing with his closed-off nature and just doing his best to be a friend to be relied on... leon has always been incredibly important to him. from the start, he's always considered leon a friend worth protecting and pursuing new avenues with.
but here and now, he's come to realize that things aren't so simple. his feelings are much more than that, because being around leon even at his grumpiest... stahn is happy to be there for it. and the feeling that's been rising in his chest from the moment their hands touched until now only further proves it—leon is someone completely irreplaceable to him.
and that's why he's been fine like this. there isn't much that stahn expects from this after all. with their hands gently locked together and faces close enough that he can feel leon's breath... that's enough. it's more than enough, because he knows this isn't easy for leon, and the last thing he's wanted to do this whole time is make him uncomfortable. this isn't about pushing boundaries, it's a simple acknowledgment of feelings and wanting to share them—but also letting leon decide for himself what he wants and what he feels. that's not something he can force, after all. it's not something he'd want to, either.
so when he sees the barest shift in leon's expression, he's not sure what will come next. he looks... determined. but he looks satisfied in that determination too, as if whatever conclusion he's come to is certainly the right one for him. stahn is prepared to accept that, whatever it may be.
or at least, he thinks he is.
but there's a look of slight befuddlement in his eyes as leon lifts their hands, and then... well, it happens so fast that he can hardly believe it. but there's a warm softness—the feeling of leon's lips pressing lightly against the skin of the back of his hand, and stahn can hardly contain himself. the feeling in his chest is explosive, he almost feels as if his heart could come right out of his chest from how hard it's pounding. it takes a lot to embarrass stahn, and yet... somehow, leon has managed. the feeling is overwhelming enough to cause stahn's cheeks to flush a bright shade of pink.
it's a good thing, of course. but stahn didn't expect leon's acknowledgement of feelings to be anything like this at all. for leon, who is so adamant about keeping to himself, and even more adamant about avoiding physical contact, he thought just holding hands would be more than what he'd accept. so for a move like this—something others would consider tame—to come from leon, he knows... he knows how seriously leon is considering his feelings. and that more so than the gesture itself speaks volumes and warms stahn's heart even more.]
Leon... [his tone is a mixture of surprise and just pure, warm affection. he's beyond happy, he's beyond even elated—he's not sure what to call it, or if there's even a word for it. but he knows now, he knows now so much that he wants to embrace leon's feelings.
soon. he's still so shocked by the move that he doesn't know how else to respond, and he also can't help but to remain cautious about not pushing his boundaries. this had to be hard enough for leon, so he can't take things too far.
but he's happy.
he's so, so happy for this, perhaps more so than he could have ever anticipated.]