[it's fine. it's absolutely fine like this, and it's not as if stahn needs anything more confirm what's happening.
he can feel leon's face buried in his chest, and even though stahn knows that means leon can probably hear and feel the rapid way his heart pounds in light of it all... he doesn't mind. he wants leon to feel that; he wants leon to know that the depths of his sincerity stretch far beyond the words and actions he can decide on consciously. he can't tell his heart to calm down during this, after all. it's not just the excitement of coming to a realization, or that they're in this position now. it's everything.
it's those things, but it's the fact that leon has, for all intents and purposes, confessed. it's the fact that leon isn't tensing up or pushing him away. it's the fact that they're sharing a warmth and trust that stahn had never expect would come to be.
even if there are things about this that make him nervous, there's nothing about this that doesn't make stahn completely happy. he's a person who has always been full of love to give, but this is a different sort of love. it's the kind of thing he dreamed of, that he hoped he would one day have, because... well, isn't that what a lot of people want? the warmth of family, or the warmth of someone you hold dear to you. being surrounded by the people you love, being able to embrace that person who you want to spend time with most.
sure, stahn is enamored by adventure, and he wants to experience the world. and sure, he loves the idea of heroics to a certain extent. but he's a simple country boy who doesn't really want much in the grand scheme of things. maybe the glory of heroicism would be nice, but... so would settling down and starting a family, even a makeshift family. his wants aren't very many at all in the big picture. and right now, he just wants to use this time to be around leon. to be with him and just... experience things. that experience for now is as simple as his embrace, one where his arms tighten a little more just fully grasp the sensation and warmth of leon in them. and it's as simple as him burying his face into leon's hair and just taking in every feeling that goes with that.
it's warm.
it's so warm, even for stahn who emits nothing but warmth all the time. in a sense, he wishes he'd realized it sooner, but he's also happy this comes at a time when leon is willing to accept these feelings—that's more important, after all.]
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he can feel leon's face buried in his chest, and even though stahn knows that means leon can probably hear and feel the rapid way his heart pounds in light of it all... he doesn't mind. he wants leon to feel that; he wants leon to know that the depths of his sincerity stretch far beyond the words and actions he can decide on consciously. he can't tell his heart to calm down during this, after all. it's not just the excitement of coming to a realization, or that they're in this position now. it's everything.
it's those things, but it's the fact that leon has, for all intents and purposes, confessed. it's the fact that leon isn't tensing up or pushing him away. it's the fact that they're sharing a warmth and trust that stahn had never expect would come to be.
even if there are things about this that make him nervous, there's nothing about this that doesn't make stahn completely happy. he's a person who has always been full of love to give, but this is a different sort of love. it's the kind of thing he dreamed of, that he hoped he would one day have, because... well, isn't that what a lot of people want? the warmth of family, or the warmth of someone you hold dear to you. being surrounded by the people you love, being able to embrace that person who you want to spend time with most.
sure, stahn is enamored by adventure, and he wants to experience the world. and sure, he loves the idea of heroics to a certain extent. but he's a simple country boy who doesn't really want much in the grand scheme of things. maybe the glory of heroicism would be nice, but... so would settling down and starting a family, even a makeshift family. his wants aren't very many at all in the big picture. and right now, he just wants to use this time to be around leon. to be with him and just... experience things. that experience for now is as simple as his embrace, one where his arms tighten a little more just fully grasp the sensation and warmth of leon in them. and it's as simple as him burying his face into leon's hair and just taking in every feeling that goes with that.
it's warm.
it's so warm, even for stahn who emits nothing but warmth all the time. in a sense, he wishes he'd realized it sooner, but he's also happy this comes at a time when leon is willing to accept these feelings—that's more important, after all.]