[at the very lead, leon isn't alone when it comes to an inability to meet the other's gaze. stahn is still keeping his fixed elsewhere as they try to find their way around a conversation they're not ready to have yet.
they will, because it's not something they can avoid. it's not something stahn even really wants to avoid, but the fact of the matter is that they both feel very strongly but don't really know how to deal with that yet. stahn's definitely the more open of the two, and he does his best to be warm, strong and assured for leon's sake. but he falters too, so much especially when it comes to this. how could he be smooth all the time when this is the first time he's ever felt this way? and when it's the first time someone has felt this way about him?]
I know you do. That's something I knew from the first time we met. [having the crap beat out of him and arrested by leon; seeing someone so young and yet so capable and commanding—]
You know I admire it, too. [if anything, stahn realizes that he's always held a deep respect and admiration for just about everything leon does.
what used to be a starry-eyed amazement as his skill has become a little more subdued; it's grown in many ways, but he's also seen that leon isn't totally unflappable; he has his weaknesses and things that shake him. but on the battlefield, he's breathtaking with his skill and dedication to his work. that's something that will always be solid fact to him, regardless of the other feelings he has for leon.]
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they will, because it's not something they can avoid. it's not something stahn even really wants to avoid, but the fact of the matter is that they both feel very strongly but don't really know how to deal with that yet. stahn's definitely the more open of the two, and he does his best to be warm, strong and assured for leon's sake. but he falters too, so much especially when it comes to this. how could he be smooth all the time when this is the first time he's ever felt this way? and when it's the first time someone has felt this way about him?]
I know you do. That's something I knew from the first time we met. [having the crap beat out of him and arrested by leon; seeing someone so young and yet so capable and commanding—]
You know I admire it, too. [if anything, stahn realizes that he's always held a deep respect and admiration for just about everything leon does.
what used to be a starry-eyed amazement as his skill has become a little more subdued; it's grown in many ways, but he's also seen that leon isn't totally unflappable; he has his weaknesses and things that shake him. but on the battlefield, he's breathtaking with his skill and dedication to his work. that's something that will always be solid fact to him, regardless of the other feelings he has for leon.]