[the thing about stahn is that even at a time like this, even when he's so enraptured with everything leon has to offer... he's still also intensely aware of what leon needs.
even as stahn plants those kisses along leon's jaw and neck, even as his hands explore the skin beneath his shirt, he can't help but to notice the dip in leon's energy. when his head dips against stahn's shoulder, it doesn't take long for him to realize that he needs to scale back a bit himself.
it's different than other times, and for a lot of reasons. it's not just the fact that leon has allowed stahn to push the boundaries, and it's not just that stahn can feel excitement in ways that he never has with and for leon. it's that even as stahn explores, there's not even a shred of hesitation. his surprise noise wasn't laced with some sort of balking disagreement; there was consent. there hasn't been a single moment where leon has resisted or been too embarrassed... something has changed in a way that is a definitely step forward for them. there's a lot of thoughts that exist in his mind too—where this would go if leon were to allow him to continue, mostly. not that he doesn't know, but that step is a big one for both of them.
but it's also the fact that leon isn't maintaining the same pace. stahn can feel the slight change in his posture and the way he remains with his head on stahn's shoulder.
leon's tired.
it makes sense, he just came back from a long mission; he doesn't even know what prompted leon to be so forceful upon his return to begin with. so even though stahn would be content to keep going, to ignore these facts until leon told him to stop (because he would never continue without that consent), but that's not in his nature. even though his lips remain only a hair's breadth from leon's skin, he pauses, nuzzling a little more affectionately.]
We don't have to keep going. [there's no disappointment in his tone; even though he's breathless and that impassioned desire for leon remains in his voice, it's still stahn. he still cares more for leon's well-being than anything else. he can pull himself down from this aroused high and keep the boundaries in check until it's time to make an honest go of things.] You don't have to push yourself too hard.
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even as stahn plants those kisses along leon's jaw and neck, even as his hands explore the skin beneath his shirt, he can't help but to notice the dip in leon's energy. when his head dips against stahn's shoulder, it doesn't take long for him to realize that he needs to scale back a bit himself.
it's different than other times, and for a lot of reasons. it's not just the fact that leon has allowed stahn to push the boundaries, and it's not just that stahn can feel excitement in ways that he never has with and for leon. it's that even as stahn explores, there's not even a shred of hesitation. his surprise noise wasn't laced with some sort of balking disagreement; there was consent. there hasn't been a single moment where leon has resisted or been too embarrassed... something has changed in a way that is a definitely step forward for them. there's a lot of thoughts that exist in his mind too—where this would go if leon were to allow him to continue, mostly. not that he doesn't know, but that step is a big one for both of them.
but it's also the fact that leon isn't maintaining the same pace. stahn can feel the slight change in his posture and the way he remains with his head on stahn's shoulder.
leon's tired.
it makes sense, he just came back from a long mission; he doesn't even know what prompted leon to be so forceful upon his return to begin with. so even though stahn would be content to keep going, to ignore these facts until leon told him to stop (because he would never continue without that consent), but that's not in his nature. even though his lips remain only a hair's breadth from leon's skin, he pauses, nuzzling a little more affectionately.]
We don't have to keep going. [there's no disappointment in his tone; even though he's breathless and that impassioned desire for leon remains in his voice, it's still stahn. he still cares more for leon's well-being than anything else. he can pull himself down from this aroused high and keep the boundaries in check until it's time to make an honest go of things.] You don't have to push yourself too hard.