[with so few words, leon manages to convey a lot that stahn can understand in simple but equal measure. the frustration, but yet still being so gentle. the way leon's fingers feel so familiar in his hair and how leon forces their gazes to meet.
right.
it's not fair to leon to push him into this conversation at a time like this. he's not ready for that, and he can't force it.
had it been selfish? he's not sure.
he's not sure, since leon is so vague about a response. he can feel that leon isn't angry with him, and his caring, gentle touches do well enough to prove that. but it's not less hard to tell how much leon agrees with his words when his response to stahn pouring his heart out is to wait.
all the same, leon himself had said romantic partners—
so stahn realizes it. he needs to calm down and cool his jets, because when it's all over... they'll still be together, won't they?
he finds himself letting out a very unsteady, shaky breath and nodding his head. stahn is weak and vulnerable right now, and try as he might to be the pillar... leon is the one doing a better job at that at the moment.]
Right.... you're right. [he's quiet, and it's hard to tell if he's simply agreeing or if he feels a bit guilty.]
It wouldn't be fair... when you're ready, Leon. We'll talk about it then. [when did things get so difficult? he's not sure.]
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right.
it's not fair to leon to push him into this conversation at a time like this. he's not ready for that, and he can't force it.
had it been selfish? he's not sure.
he's not sure, since leon is so vague about a response. he can feel that leon isn't angry with him, and his caring, gentle touches do well enough to prove that. but it's not less hard to tell how much leon agrees with his words when his response to stahn pouring his heart out is to wait.
all the same, leon himself had said romantic partners—
so stahn realizes it. he needs to calm down and cool his jets, because when it's all over... they'll still be together, won't they?
he finds himself letting out a very unsteady, shaky breath and nodding his head. stahn is weak and vulnerable right now, and try as he might to be the pillar... leon is the one doing a better job at that at the moment.]
Right.... you're right. [he's quiet, and it's hard to tell if he's simply agreeing or if he feels a bit guilty.]
It wouldn't be fair... when you're ready, Leon. We'll talk about it then. [when did things get so difficult? he's not sure.]