[Stahn's obviously made a little uncomfortable by the staring, which was never Leon's intent--but it's not really that surprising either, and he feels almost a little sheepish about it. He hadn't meant to embarrass him, after all.
Instead, he just focuses on trying to relax in the bath. It's strange that this is what makes him tense of all of the things they've just done, but on the other hand...this is the sort of intimacy that he can't fake or pretend. As soon as they got in deep before, their bodies took over for them, but here? He's got no guide, and he's not really sure what he's doing here.
But Stahn gently wraps his arms around him, and when Leon rests back against him he can hear his heartbeat, slow and steady, and even though this is the first time in Leon's entire life that he's ever been so gently intimate with someone in such a loving way... it still settles him a little to be so close to Stahn, as it always does. That's come to symbolize safety and warmth for him in so many ways, after all.
Slowly, by small degrees, he begins to relax a little more. Besides...the water is nice.]
It...isn't that.
[He is uncomfortable, a little bit, but it's not Stahn's fault. This is just...entirely new to him.]
I'm fine. [A slow breath in, and he slowly lets his shoulders slump back against Stahn more.] ... This is fine.
[And...it really is, isn't it? When he lets himself relax and just enjoy it...it really is nice.]
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Instead, he just focuses on trying to relax in the bath. It's strange that this is what makes him tense of all of the things they've just done, but on the other hand...this is the sort of intimacy that he can't fake or pretend. As soon as they got in deep before, their bodies took over for them, but here? He's got no guide, and he's not really sure what he's doing here.
But Stahn gently wraps his arms around him, and when Leon rests back against him he can hear his heartbeat, slow and steady, and even though this is the first time in Leon's entire life that he's ever been so gently intimate with someone in such a loving way... it still settles him a little to be so close to Stahn, as it always does. That's come to symbolize safety and warmth for him in so many ways, after all.
Slowly, by small degrees, he begins to relax a little more. Besides...the water is nice.]
It...isn't that.
[He is uncomfortable, a little bit, but it's not Stahn's fault. This is just...entirely new to him.]
I'm fine. [A slow breath in, and he slowly lets his shoulders slump back against Stahn more.] ... This is fine.
[And...it really is, isn't it? When he lets himself relax and just enjoy it...it really is nice.]