[There's no doubt that it's the name. It's a reaction to the name 100%, because even if it's said more lightly now, with a little bit of concern and in general a lot lighter of an atmosphere, Leon can't dissociate it from Stahn choking it out beneath him in bed, and it's just--
It's too much.
He can feel the warmth radiating from his face, so he keeps his face determinedly away from Stahn, frantically trying to gather his composure and honestly incapable of doing so. He needs to get changed too, but instead he's standing there dripping in the middle of the room, tense, but not in a bad way. Rather--it makes him shudder to remember, makes a thrill go through his body and he has to lick dry lips as he remembers.
And then he shakes himself quickly, stepping towards the closet. He... needs to put on clothes.
... He needs to also respond to Stahn, he realizes, which means he has to clear his dry throat as well again, before he finally manages--]
What is it?
[but he is still very much not facing Stahn, because if he does, his embarassment will be all too clear.
(Is it normal? Is it normal to want to hear Stahn say his name in that tone again? Would he be able to make him do so, the next time to do this? All he feels when he thinks that is... anticipation.)]
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It's too much.
He can feel the warmth radiating from his face, so he keeps his face determinedly away from Stahn, frantically trying to gather his composure and honestly incapable of doing so. He needs to get changed too, but instead he's standing there dripping in the middle of the room, tense, but not in a bad way. Rather--it makes him shudder to remember, makes a thrill go through his body and he has to lick dry lips as he remembers.
And then he shakes himself quickly, stepping towards the closet. He... needs to put on clothes.
... He needs to also respond to Stahn, he realizes, which means he has to clear his dry throat as well again, before he finally manages--]
What is it?
[but he is still very much not facing Stahn, because if he does, his embarassment will be all too clear.
(Is it normal? Is it normal to want to hear Stahn say his name in that tone again? Would he be able to make him do so, the next time to do this? All he feels when he thinks that is... anticipation.)]