[the afterglow is remaining just a little longer for stahn, but at least if leon is to suggest that they clean up, it'll be okay. they're together, and they can clean up together too. it's a little different than the blunt way that leon left before.

but that still has to wait a bit, because what leon says seems to strike something in him. it's not really that surprising to him that leon would be more informed about these things despite his lack of experience—to him, leon is smart and worldly, so it makes sense that he would know things stahn doesn't, even about this.

stahn grew up on a farm, after all. he was raised with pretty traditional values and while who he loves isn't an issue, he does believe in only giving his all this way to someone he loves. leon is special to him in every single way, and he wants to give everything to him for that reason.]

Yeah. If... if it's you, then it's okay. [quietly, he'll admit that.

it's not as if stahn really has any doubts about it, and it's not like there was really any other option. but when he's feeling so sheepish and embarrassed for how much they've exposed so quickly, it brings him a certain kind of calm.

—funny how that goes, that somehow, stahn is the one that ends up a bit scandalized by things, but his sheltered ways contribute to that a lot.]

I don't know what else will happen... I'm still trying to figure it out.

But... if I can make you happy, then I'll do whatever it takes. [it's...

well, it's a very stahn sort of admission. it's earnest and sentimental, it's sincere and full of love—he doesn't just mean in bed, after all. not entirely, even if that's mostly what he means right now.]