leon makes that suggestion so boldly and... the truth is the fact that he nails exactly what stahn is thinking. his instinct his to try and hide his face a little, though it's not because leon is saying those things.
he lets the wet strands of hair block his eyes, and his hand seeks out leon's forearm, squeezing it lightly.]
I...
[the part stahn needs to get over is the fact that saying it so boldly is hard for him. it's such a strange situation to be in, when just a while ago, he'd be the one adventurously exploring leon's body without much thought but wanting him to feel good. but these conversations have somehow brought out surprising difficulties thanks to the differences they've faced in terms of exposure.]
I want to see you that way too, but...
[there's something he needs to make just as clear about this.] Only... in a way you're happy with.
[he doesn't want to convince leon to do things for his sake. he wants leon to do things he's comfortable with, or feels he could be comfortable with... and he doesn't particularly want leon on the floor.
...on his knees.
...
does he?
....
(maybe the imagery is just as overwhelming, and that's why:)]
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leon makes that suggestion so boldly and... the truth is the fact that he nails exactly what stahn is thinking. his instinct his to try and hide his face a little, though it's not because leon is saying those things.
he lets the wet strands of hair block his eyes, and his hand seeks out leon's forearm, squeezing it lightly.]
I...
[the part stahn needs to get over is the fact that saying it so boldly is hard for him. it's such a strange situation to be in, when just a while ago, he'd be the one adventurously exploring leon's body without much thought but wanting him to feel good. but these conversations have somehow brought out surprising difficulties thanks to the differences they've faced in terms of exposure.]
I want to see you that way too, but...
[there's something he needs to make just as clear about this.] Only... in a way you're happy with.
[he doesn't want to convince leon to do things for his sake. he wants leon to do things he's comfortable with, or feels he could be comfortable with... and he doesn't particularly want leon on the floor.
...on his knees.
...
does he?
....
(maybe the imagery is just as overwhelming, and that's why:)]
Th... that would be too much.