Leon Magnus | Stahn Aileron | 071

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[this is a catch-all for boyfriends

here's a list

- ice cream ✓
- seasickness
- stahn sacrifice ✓
- reunion: judas ✓
- taming stahn's hair ✓
- piggyback rides ✓
- just imagine
- family dinner
- why is there pow hammer
- possessive leon
- apologies
- post-barbatos afterlife meeting
- AND MORE]

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[Of course Stahn was infinitely more aware than Judas.

Because Judas still sucks at emotions.

But either way, he just nods vaguely in response to that.]

I see. [It's...the same for him, even if he doesn't think he really has the right to say so. After all... he didn't have to bear that missing piece for 18 years like Stahn did.]

Then that is...for the better.

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I don't think there's any situation where you being here could be worse.

[it's a quiet, honest statement. it's always for the better that he's here, and stahn is happy every single day when he wakes up and realizes that judas is part of their family now, where he belongs.]

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[... So sentimental.

So sappy.

And yet it warms him a lot even so... ugh. He's getting sentimental too.]

Should ever you change your mind on that, I'll be the first to remind you of this moment.

[He's mostly joking though.]

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I waited eighteen years... I'd have to be a real idiot to change my mind.

[no matter how many times he's been called an idiot, this is a situation where he won't concede to being one under any circumstances.]

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[The stark reminder takes a lot of the humor out of the situation; Judas is quiet for a moment before he nods briefly.]

... I know.

I am aware that...that is still a period of time that I have not completely grasped yet.

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I know... it's different for us in that way. It's... a long time. A really long time but...

[he gives a bit of a nod.] Times like this, it feels like no time at all has passed.

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... Is that for the better?

[That it feels like no time has passed?]

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It nice not to feel as old as I am sometimes...

[he acts his age a lot more now that there are so many kids to take care of, after all. he doesn't feel old, but he's not what he was at nineteen.]

Besides...it says something good about us as friends, doesn't it?

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[He's quiet for a moment at that, but... he really honestly thinks that Stahn's right.

It does, and...he's glad for it.]

... I suppose it does.

[He's grateful for that. Their friendship... in a lot of ways, some things really never changed.]

Though I think that speaks more to the sort of person you are than me.

[Stahn had 18 years to change, and yet here they are.]

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...Do you think so?

[stahn's not really sure he understands what judas means by that, honestly. stahn would imagine that their friendship was just one that had been very secure despite the time that had passed.

he doesn't really attribute himself to anything about that at all. they're just... friends.]

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... I do.

It means that even after 18 years... you are still you.

[Quite frankly...that's just how Judas sees it, and he's fine with that.

Stahn should always be Stahn.]

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Well... who else would I be?

[stahn laughs a little... did judas think he would really change that much? stahn has a hard time imagining changing significantly, he doesn't think he has at all aside from getting older.]

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... You said it yourself.

Eighteen years is a long time.

[He's just saying...it could've happened.

But it didn't.]

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It is, but... I can't be anyone but myself. A lot may have changed, but I'm still just me, because that's all I can be.

[stahn is stahn, that's for sure.]

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[... Honestly.

Stahn's so simple sometimes.

(It's nice to see that after everything, he's still Stahn.)]

So it would seem. Perhaps I was simply overthinking it.

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[well, at least for that, judas will get a grin.]

That's right! I'm always just going to be me... so as long as you're you, some things will never change.

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[... Okay that might be a little too simple though.]

... Even so, I do believe I've changed a great deal.

[Recently, especially, but... kind of a lot in general.]

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You did. But.... you're still you. No matter much you've changed, I can still see the ways you're the same.

[and stahn doesn't mean that in a superficial way. he means at his core, he sees the person who was born emilio and still is emilio to this day, even though so much else has changed, including his identity.]

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[... Is that supposed to be a good thing? He's really not sure. Judas is pretty sure that if he met his past self now, he'd hate him.

On the other hand, Stahn has already done more than enough reassuring on this trip already, and it's only just begun.]

... I see. I suppose it is only to be expected that... not everything will change. [Despite his best efforts.]

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Of course not!　We're still us, right? Even if a lot of things change... we're still best friends. And the things that make us best friends won't change.

[because that runs deeper than just names or circumstances, the way stahn sees it.]

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[Jeeze, Stahn!!! Nobody asked you to be this cute and sappy!!!

Judas is just going to be quiet in response for a moment before he finishes up his lunch portion and shakes his head.]

We should keep going.

[(he's embarrassed)]

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Why are you in such a rush!

[he knows why.]

We'll still make it to a good place to camp in time, we shouldn't push too hard. [not letting judas get away with this, apparently.]

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Even if we do have time, that does not mean that we should needlessly dilly-dally.

[So there!!!!

(No, he's still just embarrassed.)]

Lingering doesn't help anyone.

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Still, we don't want to tire ourselves out too early, right?

[he's finishing up his food... and then flopping back onto the grass to look at some passing clouds.

fight him, judas.]

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[...... he'll fight him!!!

... Except he won't. Still, Judas does get up with a sigh, shaking his head. He isn't used to traveling at such a leisurely pace. As Leon, it was always missions--and then as Judas, it was even more pressing.

So this is hard.]

I'm going to take a look around then.