[ That opens her up to having this turned on her, and she knows it, but also, she can't not say it. Even if he's already being embarrassing, saying that much. On some level, there's still a part of her that kind of wants to punch him and run, just out of sheer hair-trigger anxiety. Nice things don't happen to Ritsuka! Not very often, at least, and certainly not enough that she can settle gracefully into the feeling.
But it's just an impulse, a thought that flashes in her mind and is gone again. She doesn't actually want to run away, no matter what the lizard part of her brain is trying to tell her. ]
So... so if you don't tell me to stop, I won't. I'm pretty bad at giving up.
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[ That opens her up to having this turned on her, and she knows it, but also, she can't not say it. Even if he's already being embarrassing, saying that much. On some level, there's still a part of her that kind of wants to punch him and run, just out of sheer hair-trigger anxiety. Nice things don't happen to Ritsuka! Not very often, at least, and certainly not enough that she can settle gracefully into the feeling.
But it's just an impulse, a thought that flashes in her mind and is gone again. She doesn't actually want to run away, no matter what the lizard part of her brain is trying to tell her. ]
So... so if you don't tell me to stop, I won't. I'm pretty bad at giving up.