realpolitik | Leon Magnus | Stahn Aileron

[yeah. what a romantic.

for a moment, stahn can't really do anything at all... he's completely breathless and too weak to stand; the pleasure from that experience definitely would leave his legs too weak to even fathom getting up so quickly.

but stahn will be stahn just as leon will be leon, so even though he's still not in a position where he feel ready to move:]

Emiliooooooo.... [he'll just whine, because all of those sweet, loving, tender moments are somewhat shattered in the wake of that climax but leon barely lingering for a minute before getting up and walking away.

way to leave him high and dry in a moment that should have been really sweet and warm. leon definitely still has a lot to learn about romance here.]

[it's not like he can't hear the whining from the bathroom. There's the sound of the faucet as Leon cleans off his hand, and then he quirks an eyebrow at the sound of Stahn's whine.

He sure does have a lot to learn, because he doesn't even see anything wrong with what he did.

Still, a moment later he reappears, hands now clean, and tilts his head vaguely at Stahn even as he wanders back over to sit on the bed.]

What is it now?

[he thought that went pretty well, why are you whining!!!]

[he's whining because he has a reason to whine! of course, the first thing stahn's actually doing is reaching out his hand to tug leon back towards him.]

...You left too soon. [that sure is stahn's complaint right now. and he does sincerely sound disappointed that leon was so quick to get up and walk away after that. he wanted to share a few more kisses and embrace the moment before anything else...

it feels strangely cold to have leon touch him so intimately, to kiss him in such a warm loving way—and then he just gets up and walks away like it's nothing.

yeah, that part feels kind of crappy.]

[O....h??? Leon wasn't actually expecting that at all; he doesn't fight it when Stahn pulls him closer, but he's frowning a little to himself too.

He thought he'd done well, but he actually messed it up at the end....which isn't a good feeling for him either, considering how intent he was on successfully doing this for Stahn.

So, awkwardly and a little stiffly because apologies still don't come naturally to him--]

I...see. I was not aware that that-- rather.

...I will make certain it does not happen again.

[oh.

okay, well.

he didn't want leon to actually feel bad about it. so stahn... well, stahn has to be stahn about things. he pushes himself to sit upright finally, and follows it up by wrapping leon into a hug.]

Everything else... it felt really good. Really good. [he assures, quietly. his voice is warmer and less disappointed—he wants to make sure leon understands fully that everything else was amazing.]

You... I felt what you want to tell me. [that he's worth it, that he's the only one for leon, that this is love.]

...I just wanted more of that. For it... it to not be over so quickly. [he hopes that leon will understand what he means. that the warmth and the feeling of love gets a bit stunted when he just abruptly leaves like that.]

[Well...that admittedly helps. The pride in him wars with the part of him that legitimately is pleased to hear that reassurance; he doesn't like to have to make Stahn reassure him, because he likes to pretend he doesn't need it--

But in this case, he'll take it. Quietly, he nods, because...well, he's pleased. He's pleased that Stahn thought it felt good. He's pleased that Stahn understood what he was getting at.

So he doesn't pull away as Stahn pulls him into a hug, instead just resting his chin on Stahn's shoulder for a moment. And...an almost embarrassed mutter, because he feels like maybe that should've been obvious to him, but it didn't even cross his mind--]

... I will keep that in mind for the next time.

Mm... It'll be fine. Even better, I bet.

[stahn hums quietly, holding leon this way for a moment before trying to guide him to lay down. stahn really wasn't ready to give up on the sweeter sentiment when leon decided to pull away, so he's going to take advantage of it now.

even if he's still undressed with leon is fully clothed. he doesn't want to waste the euphoric feeling. he want to press a kiss to leon's lips—so he does, acting on it and conveying a silent thank you for expressing his love so passionately.

but after that, he'll shift slightly to bring his mouth towards leon's ear, as if to mutter a secret to him.]

I didn't know you'd... be so good at that. [okay, so maybe stahn isn't really done yet here, either. oops.]

[Well.... Leon's not entirely sure about laying back down, and if Stahn hadn't been a total kicked puppy about the getting up and leaving thing, he might've resisted. But she he was a kicked puppy about it... Leon just sighs and goes along with it, allowing Stahn to drag him properly back into bed even though it's getting late in the morning.

Still, the kiss is nice... and he can feel a shiver begin when Stahn brings his mouth to Leon's ear and murmurs--

... ... ... and the shiver dies right there because he's not really super sure how he should take something like that.

"YEAH ME NEITHER" is probably not a viable answer.]

... Yes, well. It is not as though the mechanics of it are particularly difficult.

[Stop taking literally all of the romance out of this moment, Leon.]

There's no need to be so surprised. Naturally I can do anything I put my mind to.

[He says, more awkwardly than with bravado this time.]

[seriously, leon.

this kid needs to learn to work on his pillow talk a bit. though maybe that's fine. for a moment, stahn scrunches his nose—does leon always have to be so clinical about things? how could he have been so sweet and romantic and full of love...

and then flip it around to be to arrogant-sounding, like it was only natural that despite inexperience, he could nail that so easily...

normally, stahn likes that.

he likes leon's confidence.

but right now... it makes everything feel so tempting.]

—Did you feel anything? [maybe it's not too surprising that stahn's next words sound both teasing and challenging. he wants to know, because he had no way of looking or checking for himself at the time.

was leon excited by it? did he feel that same warmth straight to his core? did he want to be touched in return, was he feels stifled by the fact that everything came to an end?

if he did, could stahn fix that?

if he didn't, could stahn make him want it?

it doesn't seem fair that leon got to be the only one in control. it may have been fun, and stahn is unwillingly willing to do things like that again. but he's not the only one who wants to elicit responses. can he make leon groan, grip the sheets, dig his fingers into stahn's skin? could he do that again without doing things as they were last night?

...stahn wants to know. he's as unsure as he is curious, so he's baiting a response right now.]

[... Hm.

He's not sure what Stahn's getting at here, but there's no ignoring the fact that (inwardly), it does give Leon something to think about. Did he feel anything...?

... Of course he did.

The noises Stahn had been making were obscene. The look of Stahn naked on the bed, blissed out and focused on nothing but Leon's actions and words, had been far beyond gratifying, it'd been downright enjoyable.

And, of course, there's always the way that Stahn groaned his name...

Leon breathes out as steadily as he can, and clears his throat.]

Naturally, I... felt something. It is not as though I am incapable of it.

[On the other hand, admitting just how much he felt seeing Stahn like that is not in Leon's plans; he thinks that would be embarrassing.]

I wasn't asking if you were capable.

[he knows leon is capable, because the night before proved that. he wants to know if the position they were in just a few minutes ago was enough for him. he wants to know if leon needs or wants release too.

because... well, frankly, it's what stahn wants right now. rather than shift to kiss leon's lips, he plants a chaste but teasing kiss right at leon's earlobe, hands shifting and moving out of a hug to tease at the waistline of leon's pants.

what stahn says next is completely earnest, but there's little doubting that there's something provacative about it as well.]

I want you to feel good too.

[.................... Oh.

Oh.

That went from 0 to 60 real fast, and Leon blinks as Stahn's hands shift down to the waistline of his pants, face heating up a little despite himself. He clears his throat again, trying not to sound as mildly overwhelmed as he legitimately is, because...well, that hadn't been the point behind this, right? Even if... even if the way Stahn says those words sends a thrill through him, even if part of him is honestly curious as to what Stahn would do, and what Stahn's thinking....

(Even if part of him likes it when Stahn takes charge like this, in his own way.)

... It's still not the point of their morning activities, and after drawing in a somewhat shaky breath, he'll say so.]

I... it is not as though it's necessary. I proved my point, and that...was all that needed to be done.

[... ... .... on the other hand, though, Stahn's hands are awfully tempting, aren't they? Even if Leon's really honestly not sure if he's ready for this, because he's been blindsided--he sincerely wasn't expecting Stahn to just...go for it like this.]

[it's true, stahn is the one taking charge now. leon lit a fire in him this way, and even though there was brief respite when stahn recovered from his own bliss...

he doesn't want to be the only one on the receiving end of a good time. there's nothing stahn wants more than to make leon happy, than to make him feel as good as leon made him feel. so he'll plant kisses from leon's ear and down his jawline until he teases at the lips.

his hands remain in that precarious position too, teasing but not quite touching anything but the lower part of leon's stomach with a touch as featherlight as what leon did to him earlier. he doesn't kiss yet, either.]

That's not true. [he murmurs, fingers still teasing at his skin.] It's not fair if you're the only one who gets all the fun, Leon.

[this time, stahn is the one teasing, deliberately using that name instead. it's necessary, because stahn wants him to feel good. he wants to make leon happy, and he wants to prove his own worth in return. he wants to have a little control since he wasn't allowed any before.

he wants to make leon squirm and writhe with pleasure, he wants to see if he can get leon to say his name in that same manner.

it's times like these when stahn's fiery nature comes out; he's hot-blooded and passionate, and as competitive as he his loving; he'll feel like he's on the losing end of things if they just get on with their day.

(and he'll show leon just what to do when they're finished, so he can ensure he knows for himself how it works.)]

[Leon's ready for the kiss, too. His body reacts immediately, shifting and somewhat pliant with those kisses, tilting his head up for a better angle for that kiss--because he likes them. He likes kissing Stahn, just as Stahn likes kissing him, but instead of pressing their lips together, Stahn just pauses there, and Leon's expression twists every so slightly, lips quirking downwards into a frown.

He's not sure he's about this life, Stahn!!!

Stahn's fingers, though, sure are distracting even so. The skin there is sensitive, unused to being touched even with their activities from the night before, and Leon breathes out a shuddery breath. Hm...

He can honestly not say he's ever heard this tone from Stahn before. Usually, when he's teasing or joking around, it's a lot lighter than this--but there's a legitimate edge to this teasing, a provocative edge that sends Leon's mind right to the gutter.

He swallows, tightly, and when he speaks, his tone is a bit more strained.]

Don't...act as though you didn't want it that way. I was simply responding to your challenge.

[That's all... but this teasing half-in half-out is driving Leon crazy, and he's silent for a moment longer before he just huffs out a short breath, all sharpness and frankness, but an edge of want as well.]

If you have some sort of inclinations of something to do to me, get on with it. I do not intend to spend all day in bed.

[And...well, this is driving him crazy.]

I don't know... If you're just going to demand I do it, it's not as fun.

["get on with it," isn't exactly inviting. of course, stahn doesn't actually have any intention of stopping. but that still doesn't stop him from pulling back a little to pout at leon.

granted, he does hear the edge of desire in stahn's voice, but even at his worst, he can't actually press on without being sure that leon wants this. so maybe the look on his face is a bit quizzical.

he wants to do this.

he wants to make leon feel good, and he wants to try his best to do something different to make him feel even better (though he's still not even sure what yet), but he can't think of letting his hand drift anywhere else without explicit consent.

but still, stahn is now lowering himself a bit so their lips lightly meet, almost pleading.] I want to be able to do the same thing for you. So you can feel as good as I do.

[in the end, stahn is still a sap. much as he would like to be so commanding, to just pin leon to the bed completely, strip him down and touch him everywhere...

leon has to be willing, he can't actually push that boundary again when leon says things so... vague...]

[... Ah.

At any other time, Leon would probably be endeared by Stahn's inability to do anything without explicit consent. It's very Stahn, and it's also very sweet. He's so focused on trying to make sure that Leon has a good time while also not feeling uncomfortable, and it's just...

... Well, it doesn't suit the mood.

Leon had wanted Stahn to take control. The teasing, the provocation--it had all been tantalizing, and now that Stahn's pulling back, being a sap and being so Stahn, Leon can't help the way he snorts under his breath, reaching up with a hand to bury his fingers into Stahn's hair and drag him forcefully into a proper kiss, overcoming the light meeting of their lips with something far more thorough.

At the same time, his free hand slides down to Stahn's still there hovering at the edge of his waistline, and guides it slightly further down.

And when he pulls away from the kiss, tone breathy and hoarse, it's to meet Stahn's eyes with all of the daring he can muster, quirking an eyebrow just as he would in sparring practice when he was trying to get Stahn to take the next step or grow, when he was trying to drag Stahn into having the confidence to try.]

Then show me that you can.

[If that's what Stahn wants--then Leon wants to see it, and now that they've gotten this far? He doesn't really intend to hold back either, and he doesn't want to see Stahn hold back.]

Don't leave me waiting.

[oh.

stahn can't help the way his face goes a little red; he's kind of embarrassed. not at what they're doing, they're too far gone for that—but because he knows leon is challenging him. he's being taunted and goaded.

just like when they spar.

of course, it always worked in sparring. it motivated stahn to better himself so he didn't disappoint leon. and right now? it's much the same. he doesn't want to disappoint leon. he wants to make leon happy and proud, he wants to make him feel good and pleasured and satisfied. so to this challenge, stahn intends to rise up. his teeth tug at leon's lower lip before he kisses him, but instead of his hands moving further down, they rise up—he wants to remove leon's shirt first and foremost, because it's a little less fun to explore leon's body the way he wants to if he's still fully clothed.

if leon doesn't want him to hold back?

he won't.]

Then... I'll do my best. [because stahn can't help but to be modest in his words.

his actions may betray that in a sudden motion that now had stahn straddling leon at the hips, leaning down to kiss him as he tugs up more insistently at the fabric. his hair is everywhere, framing them both and undoubtedly touching at any exposed skin it can find...

if leon wants him to do this, he'll do his best, that's for certain.]

[...Well.

It seems to have worked, Leon thinks--it's hard to be sure with how modest and careful Stahn can be. Still, he'll at least lift his shoulders and arms to make it easier for Stahn to tug his shirt off, and then Leon looks up to meet Stahn's eyes and it's just Stahn's face and a curtain of hair. It strikes him that...this is the first time Stahn's been on top like this, and Leon swallows. Even before they were at this stage, even when it was just straddling or making out or simple kisses, it was always Leon on top.

Even with it just being Stahn, the person he trusts beyond life itself, and the person he loves and accepts into his personal space, it still leaves him feeling a little trapped.

He takes in a slow, shuddering breath between the kisses, and tries to focus only on that. It's ridiculous to feel those leftover fears and urges from before. He knows he's safe here, under Stahn. He has no desire to let those lingering fears compromise their enjoyment of this situation--

Especially not when he was the one to taunt Stahn into this. So, as per how Leon usually deals with his problems, he aggressively tries to ignore it, using the hand buried in Stahn's hair to drag him down into another fierce kiss, trying to focus solely on that, despite how his heart beats just a little too fast at this.]

[stahn doesn't want leon to ignore that or anything else. no, his intent is to make leon's mind go completely white from the pleasure, just as had been done to him. when leon's shirt is removed, stahn is thoughtlessly tossing it on the floor as he kisses leon.

but stahn's not oblivious to the fact that leon is still trying to main some sense of control of the situation.

unacceptable, not when this is something leon is challenging him to. it won't feel like he's figuring this out for himself if leon finds ways to guide him through it. so he pulls back enough to break the proper kiss, but dives back in to suck on leon's lip for a moment before dragging his mouth to leon's ear.]

...I thought it was my turn. [it's almost playful, how he says it. it's an honest statement that's almost childlike...

yet that betrays itself when stahn's dragging his fingers down leon's body, lifting himself up enough to tug leon's pants down just enough to be exposed, and then lowering himself so his body causes just a bare amount of friction against leon's. it lets them be skin to skin, and it's obvious enough that stahn himself is getting excited again just from this alone.

acting this way... it's definitely new, but he wants to meet the challenge that leon set for him—which isn't to be what he normally is. it's not to be soft and affectionate and completely pure in his intentions. it's to go after the desires instead, and though stahn fumbles a bit himself, shuddering a breath against leon's ear that shows his own weakness to this contact, he's going to try and press forward anyway.]

[...Ah.

It's strangely difficult.

Stahn's asking for a lot here, and it doesn't even seem like it at first glance. But then... then it sinks in. Stahn's asking him to give up all control. He's asking him to trust only in Stahn, to put all of his faith in Stahn's hand and just let him take over. For Leon... that's a foreign concept.

He's never done this before.

There's a complicated expression on his face in response to that. Stahn's words are teasing and playful, light and gentle, but Leon's short of breath and uncertain, still under Stahn as he tries to figure out how to do this. How...does he really do this? How can he do something like this?

And then...he realizes that--he just has to trust Stahn. That's all there is to it. He has no other option here--unless he wants to shove Stahn off and tell him to stop, which he doesn't. So he has to trust him. Slowly, he breathes out a quiet breath, eyes sliding shut, and then he slumps to the bed, tension fading away bit by bit as he accepts it and just...takes that leap of faith, hand sliding from Stahn's hair to rest beside him on the bed, and without opening his eyes... he swallows, and his words aren't much more than a hoarse whisper.]

...Fine.

[It's Stahn's turn, and Leon... Leon's going to try his absolute hardest to give up control. The slightest of friction gets Leon to shift a little, trying to line up his hips with Stahn's, but otherwise... otherwise he doesn't move. He's decided on this.

Now he has to follow through, and let Stahn be the one to take control here.]

[it's a little easier for stahn this way, though all he can really do is hope that the trust leon is putting in him is wholly sincere.

it doesn't matter how stahn acts; the truth of the matter is that leon's well-being and happiness always comes first to him. and that's precisely why he wants to be sure that he doesn't betray the trust that leon is putting in him.

there may be passion, there may be something on a commanding nature as stahn tries his best to be "in charge," but in the end, he still loves leon the most and everything he's doing right now is for leon's happiness. ...and that's why he doesn't rush.

his kisses are slow and deliberate, tracing back to leon's mouth. one hand threads leon's hair, tugging a little harder than normal but hardly in any way that could hurt him. and once his lips reach leon's mouth and he can find the taste of his tongue, the fingers from his other hand trace leon lightly, as if they're studying any memorizing his every curvature before they finally wrap around into a light grip—the amount of friction is bare and teasing, yet still somehow considerate and deliberate. he wants leon to feel good, and he wants to be the sole reason for it.

but he doesn't want leon to feel like he's leaving his trust in a dangerous place.]

[There's a distinct difference in how Stahn approaches things, compared to how Leon did--but that's fitting, considering how they are. Stahn is slow and careful and gentle, and Leon leans into the kisses without hesitation, enjoying the taste of Stahn on his tongue. He enjoys this, and it's clear in the way he responds, meeting each kiss willingly and warmly, though he's mindful enough to remain at rest on the bed, allowing Stahn to take the lead.

Now that he's made that decision, he intends to stick with it at best he can.

Though...admittedly, Stahn's hand wrapped gently around him like that makes it really hard to stick to that. His hips press forward shallowly immediately, even before he's entirely aware of himself, breath hitching between kisses. It feels good, of course--it felt good the night before as well. Stahn's hand on him is something he's pretty sure he could definitely get used to. There's warmth there in that touch, but also such deliberate movements to try to make sure that Leon feels good, and it's so fitting of Stahn as to be almost ridiculous.

In response, all Leon can really do is tilt his head with the tugs in his hair, tilting his head back and exposing more of his neck, eyes now half-open as he does, and when he lifts his hands, it's just to lightly wrap his arms around Stahn just enough to trail his fingers along his back.

So far...it's somehow calming, how gentle and careful Stahn is, even as he sends a shiver of pleasure down Leon's back.]

[in the end, stahn's idea of being in control isn't something forceful and demanding; even if it crossed his mind at first. even if the idea of a challenge pumped him up in that hot-blooded way... somehow, when it comes to leon, he can't bring himself to be that aggressive just yet.

not when he knows that leon has a hard time not being in control. he's here to keep leon's trust safe. to make him feel loved and wanted and desired. he can control the situation in his own way, but it's not doing to be demanding and forceful.

and maybe that's just the way it needs to be for them.

it's fine this way.

leon is subtle and inviting when he tilts his head, so stahn will break the kiss and start trailing his kisses elsewhere. he starts at the jaw, and then down the neck. but stahn doesn't stop there. instead of those soft, chaste kisses, these are a little more wet and possessive, lingering at times to lightly suck on the skin—it's probably a good thing leon wears so many turtlenecks, because some of those are definitely going to leave marks.

he's studying leon's body with his mouth rather than this hands, memorizing the traces of skin and stopping only when he can line leon's collar bone with kisses. his grip remains the mostly the same, increasing only slightly in pressure and pace, finding a slight rhythm with the way leon's hips move.

feeling leon's fingers on his back definitely makes him shudder and stall more than once, but stahn is relentless despite how gentle he is. if nothing else? he's definitely thorough.]

[Oh.

That's...fine.

It's a new sensation in and of itself; most of the time they just haven't gotten creative enough for this, but the feeling of Stahn's lips on his neck, possessive and intent, gets Leon to finally make a quiet noise, the soft sound escaping him with a sharp exhale out. It's new and intense, and it makes him want more, but all he can really do in this situation is tilt his head more, invitingly, accepting Stahn's mouth on him wherever he decides to explore next.

In the meantime, his breathing shudders and stutters with the movements of Stahn's hands; for now, the thrusts of his hips are still a little tentative and shallow, but he's starting to lose his inhibitions a little, seeking out more and more of that good feeling as Stahn delivers it. If there's one thing he knows for certain, he wants this to continue, he wants to know what Stahn will do next to make him feel this way. It's rapidly pushing all thoughts and concerns right out of his head, and honestly? He's glad for it.

Things are simpler when all he needs to worry about is the feeling of Stahn's mouth on him, and the friction provided by his hand.]

[somehow, it feels like it's working. stahn is glad for it too, of course, because he wants leon to be able to let go and feel good.

leon's movements, be it the way his hips cautiously thrust and allow for that friction against his hand, or how he tilts his neck seem to be inviting enough... but that's not what gives stahn the most encouragement. what tells him to continue, what indicates that he's getting something right is the sound that comes with that exhale, and how he can feel the change in leon's breathing just from where he's positioned.

at least this way, stahn is less concerned with checking on him and asking if he's okay—stahn just takes it as a means to continue. he keeps tracing leon's collar bone, working from the right side to the left before he moves down. once again, his hand takes a slight uptick in pressure, but keeps the same pace; it's almost as if stahn is drawing this out so he has time to explore everywhere. his lips will eventually find leon's chest though, alternating between gentle kisses and the more possessive ones directly over leon's heart.

it's exciting that way, because beyond the sentiment that it holds, with stahn focusing on what really matters to him most—leon's heart—he can also feel the way it beats this way, which just excites stahn more.

he wants every part of leon to be as excited as he felt just a little while earlier, and he's hoping this will work into that sort of buildup without just doing things exactly as they were done to him.]

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