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you can't spell "alone" without "leon" ([personal profile] discard) wrote in [community profile] realpolitik2015-10-16 11:13 am

Leon Magnus | Stahn Aileron | 071



[this is a catch-all for boyfriends

here's a list

- ice cream ✓
- seasickness
- stahn sacrifice ✓
- reunion: judas ✓
- taming stahn's hair ✓
- piggyback rides ✓
- just imagine
- family dinner
- why is there pow hammer
- possessive leon
- apologies
- post-barbatos afterlife meeting
- AND MORE]
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[personal profile] majinken 2016-06-04 06:31 am (UTC)(link)
Good... that's good.

[the relief in stahn's own voice is palpable, and with good reason. there had been the legitimate worry in those few moments that they were going to take steps backwards.

that maybe leon would panic because marriage came up at all. that maybe the notion would scare him away—or worse yet, that he would push stahn away because of some notion that it's better for him. sure, marriage may be the sort of thing that stahn could settle into easily, but... that's not what he wants.

if it's a happy byproduct of being with leon, it's fine. but he'd rather spend the rest of his days unmarried and with leon than anything else. even if he had thought of what it may be like, even if he pictured what could one day be?

what matters more (and most) to stahn is leon. so having leon practically leaning against him—well, it's easier to pull him into a hug this way.]


That's all I want... I promise, that's all I want. [he repeats it, as if the extra reassurance is necessary. he's not sure when it came to be this way, when leon became the center of his world and the pillar that keeps him steadiest, but that's the way it is, and he has no intent on letting that go.]
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[personal profile] majinken 2016-06-05 01:18 am (UTC)(link)
So then... we're okay, right?

[in that nothing will change. in that leon won't run away or want him to leave. in that he doesn't have a shred of doubt in stahn's sincerity.

of course, he does largely know the answer to that. he knows that leon wouldn't lean against him in this way if there was any other answer. and maybe that's exactly why he pulls leon to a proper hug, breathing out a soft, relieved breath.]


I don't want to leave. [and maybe it's just the fact that they had a conversation like this, or the notion of marriage still lingering somewhere in his mind. but stahn feels the need to reiterate that statement; to say the things he earnestly feels.] No matter what.
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[personal profile] majinken 2016-06-05 05:28 am (UTC)(link)
Well...

[when leon says it like that, there's really only one thing he can say in response:]

I hope you don't ever say that at all. [it's a bit of a quiet admission, but it's incredibly earnest. he doesn't want to leave leon, not ever. so of course, he'll say that... not that the extra assurance is really completely needed at this point.

but he wants to say it.

he wants to further reassure leon that he has no intention of ever going, marriage be damned.]
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[personal profile] majinken 2016-06-05 06:21 am (UTC)(link)
[oh.

what starts out as seeming so innocuous quickly changes the mood around them. leon murmuring words that sound so provocative sends a shiver straight down stahn's spine. though words could sound so demanding, so possessive, or just plain factual.

but in that tone of voice, so close to stahn's lips to the point that he can feel leon's breath as he speaks... well, it definitely gets stahn's heart racing. he can feel a warmth deepening in his face, and within seconds, he's closing the gap to kiss leon. but unlike his normal, more gentle kisses, this one has a bit of fire, lightly baring teeth and tugging at leon's lower lip a bit. it's still brief.]


...I'm not going to share you, either. [it's petty and selfish, and something he's aware isn't really going to be a serious issue, but he wants it to be known. stahn doesn't take offense to the girls that flirt with him for his charming looks (even if his personality tends to betray that), but he still wants it to be known. when it comes to matters like this, he wants to be the only one who lies with leon, the only one who tastes his lips, the only one who gets to bury their face in his hair and breathe in the clean and almost floral fragrance that's so uniquely leon.]
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[personal profile] majinken 2016-06-05 09:39 pm (UTC)(link)
[stahn smirks a little in response to that, because in a way... it is almost laughable that leon would even have to wonder that.

he closes the gap again to press another rough kiss hard against leon's mouth, a hand dragging up to clasp at the side of his neck. when he breaks the kiss, his mouth is still dangerously close to leon's, enough to practically breathe against his mouth as he husks out the words.]


I'm still a guy, you know... [stahn knows that he's nice, and he tries his best not to be selfish and demanding. he tries to be considerate and respect leon's boundaries, and he's a bit pure in that there's still a lot about the world he feels he has to learn.

but he's a nineteen year old boy.

he has wants and needs and desires; he's attracted to leon in every sense of the word. he doesn't want to share leon or give him up—and he wants leon to know that he has no intention of letting that happen, either. he wants to be the only one who gets to kiss leon, to send chills down his spine, to try and find all the places that will make him squirm in the best of ways. stahn is just as possessive in this case, even if he tends to be better at restraining himself.]
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[personal profile] majinken 2016-06-06 02:30 am (UTC)(link)
Mm... [it's a quiet grunt of affirmation, followed by a much briefer kiss to the corner of leon's mouth before he speaks again.]

...Then I won't. [there's something almost carnal about the way he says it, and he'll barely give leon any time to react before he makes his next move.

it's fiery, sloppy crash of his lips against leon's, baring teeth and heavy breaths.

but that's not where it stops.

his hands slide to leon's waist to pull him closer, all the same making the motions to fall backwards on the bed properly; he's horizontal and keeping leon on top of him while doing his best to not break the intensity of his kisses. if leon tells him to let go, if leon tells him not to hold back, this is the sort of position they end up in.

and it doesn't take long for his hands to wander either, feeling leon's form, seeking out skin—anything he can get without pushing the limit too far.]
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[personal profile] majinken 2016-06-06 03:45 am (UTC)(link)
[the fact that leon doesn't hesitate at all feels like a welcoming invitation. the way he kisses back, the way he shudders at stahn's touch but continues, the way his own hands seem to be searching for skin—for the first time, it really feels like they're in a position they're both ready to be in.

stahn's held back for a while, he's waited for leon to give him the okay to go. and even though stahn is still clumsy in his motions—\from the excitement, the passion and the inexperience—he doesn't seem to stop. his lips are slotted against leon's enough, sometimes pulling back to suck on leon's lip, sometimes to sloppily kiss his jaw when he's pulling back just enough to breathe.

all the while, his hands are finding their way beneath leon's shirt, feeling the increasing warmth to his skin. he seeks out whatever he can reach—back, chest, torso—and trying to commit the feeling of leon's body to his memory. he's waited so long, he's wanted to badly to just have every part of leon and his body to himself. he's not going to give it up, not even as his body shifts.

stahn's back arches a little and he slides downward just a bit to loosen his shirt from where it's tucked, giving leon an opportunity to do the same and seek out skin. his leg slides up a bit between leon's leg's, seeking a more suitable position, since it's clear that neither of them plans to stop what they're doing quite yet.

from his throat escapes a groan, one that is pleased, that is excited, that is soaking in every last moment of what is happening.]
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[personal profile] majinken 2016-06-06 07:16 am (UTC)(link)
[it's more fair this way, a mutual expression of their feelings—but it's definitely a lot and very quickly. stahn's mind hasn't caught up to what his body is doing, and while that's fine for now, it does mean he'll fumble in his motions a little, clumsy in the way he shifts.

some of those motions are a bit jerky—the sudden way in which he arches his back when he feels leon's fingers trailing his spine. he can't help the way he suddenly breaks the kiss to shudder an aroused breath and swallow thickly, or how his head turns just a bit before pushes himself to to angle kisses down leon's jawline until he's close enough to get another taste of leon's lips.

neither of them has much of a clue, and stahn's mind is clouded by desire and impulse. he isn't thinking of much at all right now; not a single thought seems to be conscious beyond the feeling of enjoying what's happening. the kisses are heated and almost desperate—it's impossible to deny that all the holding back that stahn has done for leon's sake is practically seeping out of him bit-by-bit, unable to be contained.

his hands memorize the contours of leon's body, seeking to never forget any scars or raised marks, any birthmarks, anything that isn't just the smoothness of his skin. his hands move up until the tips of his fingers can trace the protrusion of his collarbone, then slowly drag down until they can just barely tease and working their way under leon's beltline.

there's no thought, just wants. wants and more wants, and until either leon stops him or his own inability to quickly decide what comes next gets to him, stahn doesn't plan on giving it up. right now, he wants all of leon for himself.]
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[personal profile] majinken 2016-06-06 11:00 pm (UTC)(link)
[the fact that they're both so unpolished in their actions, that there's a bit of fumbling as they try to feel things out makes stahn a bit more at ease with it—like a somewhat subconscious confirmation that leon wants this as much as he does, but also that they're still treading new and unfamiliar territory.

he moves into leon's touches with every movement, each kiss more desperate and fervent than the last. he can't stop, because he thinks that if he stops, something will interrupt them and this will all be put on the backburner once more.

he doesn't want that, not now. not when he wants this. not when leon wants it. not when he can feel the warmth of leon's skin against his, feeling and memorizing just as he'd been doing. and for stahn, with his fingers below leon's beltline, he's feeling hipbones, letting his palms rest right on the protrusion and letting the very tips of his fingers graze the completely unfamiliar territory. stahn won't go further than that just yet.

but through his kisses, in muted, hushed and breathy tones, he asks a question.]


Are... you...

Still okay...?

[stahn's definitely breathless and completely engrossed in leon's body and every last kiss, but he still can't help but to ask. he doesn't know how far this is or isn't going to go, but even in this hazy state, he can't ignore that he may push leon too far if he only acts on his carnal desires.]
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[personal profile] majinken 2016-06-07 03:46 am (UTC)(link)
[he's not sure he's ever felt this kind of reaction from leon, either. the way his hair gets tugged at the scalp with desperate force, the way he can actually feel nails scratching him, though hardly enough to break the skin.

but it's so passionate and forceful and tears down every remaining wall that remains. or at least, it comes close to that.

but stahn knows there's still one more barrier that needs to be crossed, and as much as they're in the heat of the moment, he won't do anything else until leon actually consents to it. he doesn't want to push him beyond his limits, especially not when... well, honestly? he has no idea what he's going to do. but his fingers are still teasing, playing lightly at those sensitive patches of skin below the belt, and his kisses are relentless. they're warm but fiery, never stopping for any longer than enough for leon to try and squeeze out a few words when he's ready to.

stahn's body is ready to keep going further, something that leon can undoubtedly feel just from the way he's positioned on top of him; his mind is fogged by thoughts of nothing but leon all the same. they certainly go hand-in-hand, because what stahn wants is leon. he knows... he knows that regardless of how they classify themselves, they're in love. he knows that he has leon's heart.

but right now, he wants the rest of leon too.]
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[personal profile] majinken 2016-06-07 07:45 am (UTC)(link)
[there's a truth to the fact that stahn isn't really prepared for the route leon chooses to take with this. despite their labored breathing and how they intermingle, despite the way his heart races and the way the blood is flowing so far from his brain to just about everywhere else to the point where it's almost dizzying...

he still couldn't be prepared for it.

the moments had all been one of heated passion, where his hot-blooded nature and natural fires had managed to pull leon in.

but then here leon is, cupping his cheek so gently, seeming so thoughtful and warm and kind as a finger grazes his cheek that it leaves stahn utterly speechless. there weren't many words to begin with, but rather than heated passion, his heart almost feels like it could burst from his chest with how much love seems to go into the gesture. his words, and the kiss that follows... they take a slightly different tone that resonates deeply with stahn.

it's exciting. he wants more.

it seems to fit them well enough, maybe a little better than sloppily trying to get through things. and maybe that's why stahn is content to let this kiss linger a bit longer before he murmurs against leon's lips.]


I just wanted to make sure... Before we went any further. [his words are strangely considerate despite the aroused haze that surrounds stahn, though maybe that in itself is telling of just how deeply he considers leon's needs.] I'm not holding back. I won't, if you don't want me to.

[but stahn will follow that up with another kiss, warm and deep, and a lot less frantic than the other kisses. it doesn't mean he's stopping, or that they won't try to pursue this as far as they can...

but it means there's just a little more of stahn at the helm rather than just stahn's raging hormones desperately seeking out leon's body.

....even though wanting every last inch of it can't be stopped at this point.]
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[personal profile] majinken 2016-06-07 07:39 pm (UTC)(link)
Then... I'll keep going.

[it serves as a quiet confirmation, an acknowledgment of what they're moving forward towards doing. every kiss, every touch now feels so deliberate and so warm; there's not just desire held in their touches, but also love...

though neither of them moves to say it. somewhere on his tongue, that word does linger somewhere, but never dares to be spoken. it's a bit tough to hold it back when leon is so gentle, when he touches stahn's skin softly enough to send shivers straight up and down his spine, and when he doesn't have even the slightest bit of hesitation.

stahn wants to embrace that, because it's taken them so long to get to the point where they can be this comfortable with one another. so as he shifts to raise his head a bit and give leon another deep, warm kiss, his hands edge away from the beltline and back under leon's shirt and up his back. it's only a temporary motion, one to aid in shifting the mood—and maybe to buy himself another couple of moments of time to figure out what and how to approach this.

maybe now stahn is being a little more cautious, a little more gentle—not out of real hesitation or concern for pushing his limits, but because he wants it to be a good experience.

even though their pauses have given him enough time to realize he doesn't really know what he's doing. he pushes his leg up slightly between leon's legs, grazing against him lightly and making and attempt to shift them into a position where they won't be stuck in just awkward touching beneath clothes—and that's why as he does so, he tugs upwards a little at leon's shirt.

—undressing, that should come first right? at least partially so, he thinks.]

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